Butterfly Effect

Javi. says:
ragamofin squidilicious

Javi. says:
now say that three times ja!

=- - jaime - says:
ragamofin squidilicious ragamofin squidilicious ragamofin

Javi. says:
i said say it not write it, thast cheating

=- - jaime - says:
ooooohh

Javi. says:
dont u know how to read

=- - jaime - says:
no

Javi. says:
good

Javi. says:
that saves me the problem

=- - jaime - says:
full

Javi. says:
tell me something, if a fish gets a leg, crosses the san francisco bridge drinking holland beer, flies to vancouver cuz that was his dream, but then, when he gets there eats a fly, that causes him cancer, which gets cured by a moth, do u think that it will rain today?

=- - jaime - says:
probably, its the butterfly effect

Javi. says:
i know!

Javi. says:
i just told my dad and he said i should be careful with the radioactive cord

Javi. says:
aint he weird!

=- - jaime - says:
it has nothing to do with the psychoanalisis of the fish more with the temperature of globalization

Javi. says:
but if we take that the fish lives in water which is moved by the moons evil powers, dont u think that temperature that globalizes the ants has anything to do with beer?

=- - jaime - says:
well beer has water in it so when the moon causes the tides to rise in order to cause demonic destruction and then the water cycles takes effect(same water which the ants drink ) then i suppose it does have something to do

Javi. says:
oh so that means that the butterfly effect only takes part when drinking beer with ants that at the same time throw rocks at ducks

=- - jaime - says:
well, maybe. you see, if the drunk ants do throw rocks at ducks then it depends on the strength of ant so that when the rock does hit the duck and the duck cause shrieking sound of pain, this sound will echo into the world scaling up to monstruos typhoons, tornados and hurricanes

Javi. says:
ok fine u win

=- - jaime - says:
jajajajajjajaa

Javi. says:
i cant go against a duck of doom
=- - jaime - says:
jajajaja

=- - jaime - says:
i thought about that

Javi. says:
next time, no small feather animals of doom can be played

It's a bug

Its here, its there, its everywhere.

Colours and mixes, tours and misfits. Its there, its here, its anywhere. Beer and dears, misters and mistresses. Parallel dimension, oh what a creation. Vibrant as an echo strunged cord guitar, loud inside a tar. We repel whats inside, misleading the tide, oh what a ride. Ha, im a guy, that passes by, says hi and bye.

I know who I am, I believe in what I stand for, what I do, how I do it. The reason why I do it. I live, for others, at least, how I want to live. I want my world, to see the wonderful smile of everybody elses world. The joy of a stranger, the laughter of a friend, the smile of a loved one.

The peace of seeing everyone share the best of creations, the best of what live can bring, a single construct of a bunch of white towers attached together up and down, with a semi circle of red tainted skin.

Is there any other reason to live? Is there something better than seeing a beautiful smile? It makes everyone shine, it creates the perfect solution to a dark day.

I've seen many smiles and heard a thousand different laughters, its what I do, its what I love.

Between you and me, haven't you ever seen how, a simple smile, a small laughter brings people closer together? A smile breaks even the toughest of walls, a laughter cheers even the grumpiest of souls.

Don't let go

It's been a crazy day.

Searching around, looking for answers, to why and how, life goes on and about. Researching the concept of living and the reason behind emotions.

It's been a long day.

Wasted hours gone by, i'm still trying to pass a wall, it seems that, no matter what I do, I can't get past it. I try all sort of things, I do anything and that wall seems to still challenge my every move.

But, I stop and wonder.

Every challenge, every error, unpredictability, situation, etc.. is some form of wall, some we pass, some we jump and others we crumble. But, this wall, its different from that, its one of the biggest walls I've stumbled upon. I realize now that, probably, no matter what I do, I won't get beyond it, and, i'm happy.

This is why.

It's a challenge. People, each one of us, grow from challenges. When we pass or complete the challenge, we learn but we also forget. Since that wall is gone, it means that the experience gained from it dissipates little by little until another wall with the same characteristics appear again. So, im happy that, this wall, this giant, clean cut, no doors, no stepping stones or holes wall, is unbeatable for me, because every attempt, every move, its more experience, its more learning. I'm not letting go, i'm not going anywhere, this wall, this one wall, is my key, not to a promise land, not to heaven, it's my goal, it's my dream of life.

I'm not letting go.

In the eyes of the world

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"... What a phrase...

Its good to know that, in this complex and problematic world, beauty exists everywhere, may it be an object, a person or a state of mind.

The best part of beauty is that it varies from person to person, driving from home to college in the morning, where, there are almost no cars, when you have your windows down and just feel that morning breeze, with the perfect lighting, that, for me, is true beauty. Watching, as I gasp and choke on my own air, the beautifulness of a smile, a hug, a laughter, a melodic voice. An action of good faith.

Lately, i've had a lot of beautiful moments and witnessed a lot of beautiful things and people. Two of all the beautifulness i've experienced has dazzled my eyes.

The first one is: Friendship. I've always had a good life, in all parts of it, but, the one I treasure the most, that one part I can't live without are my friends. Old ones and new ones, thanks to them I am who I am (of course, crazyness does run in my family) but, breaking out of my box, being more proactive and being more me around anyone I owe it all to them, every single one of them. I love all my friends, if I were to pick my friends again I wouldn't change anyone. To them, I and for them, forever.

The second one: Well, this one is a little more complicated. I only get to see such beautifulness every few occassions, and, those occassions seem to go really fast, and, I never know when I can witness it again. But, everytime I do gaze upon it, I can't resist but to stare, and wonder, how, and how, that beautifulness is so complete, so great, so amazing, its in my understanding that it has everything I've always imagined. From bottom to top, from left to right, oh, what a vision, what a unique piece of life. I ever wonder, when I will gaze upon it once again.

Just thinking about those two. Makes me laugh, makes me smile and love my life everyday more.

Its an amazing power what your eyes can do. By simply gazing ones eyes towards somewhere in your path, makes you encounter with a number of beautiful moments, the conversations of newly coupled couples, the flowers of the flower ladies, the singing in a car of your favorite music. Life is best suited for those beautiful events and persons, life is meant for all of us. Bottom down, we all are, we all have, our beauty, our splendor.

Impredictability

Lifes unique way of establishing its predominant amusement. I wonder and wonder, how "unique moments" come to exist, how, "these" moments ever see the light into our predictable lifes.

Each one of ous has the answer to that question, some say that, life is a unique and different experience everyday, true, others say that, because you can't plan for everything, we tend to leave an empty margin for errors or surprises, that is also true.

I believe that, even though life is different everyday in minor or major details, we plan things wrong, we have to prepare for those unexpected events, know that they exist and just, enjoy life and all its mishaps knowing that, those moments happen and will always be there.

"...plan to be surprised." quote from "Dan in real life". Has opened my life to another step of my life. It reminds me that life is better to embrace it fully, accepting every shortcoming with a smile, with a kind heart and an eager spirit.

Moments where unexpected occurs are the best moments in life. We grow from it. We learn from it, we smile because of it.

Thats, my theory of lifes impredictability.

Core

I'm trying to reach myself again.

I lost, over the past years, something of me that, defined me and motivated me to be who I am. But, gratefully, life is like riding a bike, you just have to ride it a few times and you know how to ride again. (although i did forget how to ride a bike and still cant)

My life is filled with ever so unsuspecting surprises. Some may call it "life" and sure, thats what it is, "life" though, is what we make of it, not what happens to it. I stopped blaming life and its "coincidences" for the problems and surprises it keeps giving me, now, I appreciate all of that, I enjoy my life much more because of that, "life" is a balance of positive with negative. (thanks paul for reminding me that)

Life is not like a book, life is more than just memories, its a feeling of "belonging", its a ride where, faces, dances and gazes run by, life is nice, life rhymes with wine. I've had many experiences, and many feelings running about. I've been tossed and I've tossed. Only actions not done are the ones needed to be done.

No more will I hold fear responsible for not acting. No longer will my life be shackled and lost to me. Not blaming anyone, you can only loose yourself.

My core. Who I am. I'm a mere student of life (golden boy sounds any bells?), and, in some "subjects" I excel, in others, I flunk and flunk, (good thing they don't charge for it) but here I am, back to it, back to my core. Finding myself once more, I've strayed, I erred and stumbled, I wined, danced and love my life, I will never stop.

Every passing day, every hour (or two) that goes by, makes me feel more at home, more me (good thing im still young).

I'm back.