5/23/2008

In the eyes of the world

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"... What a phrase...

Its good to know that, in this complex and problematic world, beauty exists everywhere, may it be an object, a person or a state of mind.

The best part of beauty is that it varies from person to person, driving from home to college in the morning, where, there are almost no cars, when you have your windows down and just feel that morning breeze, with the perfect lighting, that, for me, is true beauty. Watching, as I gasp and choke on my own air, the beautifulness of a smile, a hug, a laughter, a melodic voice. An action of good faith.

Lately, i've had a lot of beautiful moments and witnessed a lot of beautiful things and people. Two of all the beautifulness i've experienced has dazzled my eyes.

The first one is: Friendship. I've always had a good life, in all parts of it, but, the one I treasure the most, that one part I can't live without are my friends. Old ones and new ones, thanks to them I am who I am (of course, crazyness does run in my family) but, breaking out of my box, being more proactive and being more me around anyone I owe it all to them, every single one of them. I love all my friends, if I were to pick my friends again I wouldn't change anyone. To them, I and for them, forever.

The second one: Well, this one is a little more complicated. I only get to see such beautifulness every few occassions, and, those occassions seem to go really fast, and, I never know when I can witness it again. But, everytime I do gaze upon it, I can't resist but to stare, and wonder, how, and how, that beautifulness is so complete, so great, so amazing, its in my understanding that it has everything I've always imagined. From bottom to top, from left to right, oh, what a vision, what a unique piece of life. I ever wonder, when I will gaze upon it once again.

Just thinking about those two. Makes me laugh, makes me smile and love my life everyday more.

Its an amazing power what your eyes can do. By simply gazing ones eyes towards somewhere in your path, makes you encounter with a number of beautiful moments, the conversations of newly coupled couples, the flowers of the flower ladies, the singing in a car of your favorite music. Life is best suited for those beautiful events and persons, life is meant for all of us. Bottom down, we all are, we all have, our beauty, our splendor.

5/20/2008

Impredictability

Lifes unique way of establishing its predominant amusement. I wonder and wonder, how "unique moments" come to exist, how, "these" moments ever see the light into our predictable lifes.

Each one of ous has the answer to that question, some say that, life is a unique and different experience everyday, true, others say that, because you can't plan for everything, we tend to leave an empty margin for errors or surprises, that is also true.

I believe that, even though life is different everyday in minor or major details, we plan things wrong, we have to prepare for those unexpected events, know that they exist and just, enjoy life and all its mishaps knowing that, those moments happen and will always be there.

"...plan to be surprised." quote from "Dan in real life". Has opened my life to another step of my life. It reminds me that life is better to embrace it fully, accepting every shortcoming with a smile, with a kind heart and an eager spirit.

Moments where unexpected occurs are the best moments in life. We grow from it. We learn from it, we smile because of it.

Thats, my theory of lifes impredictability.

5/14/2008

Core

I'm trying to reach myself again.

I lost, over the past years, something of me that, defined me and motivated me to be who I am. But, gratefully, life is like riding a bike, you just have to ride it a few times and you know how to ride again. (although i did forget how to ride a bike and still cant)

My life is filled with ever so unsuspecting surprises. Some may call it "life" and sure, thats what it is, "life" though, is what we make of it, not what happens to it. I stopped blaming life and its "coincidences" for the problems and surprises it keeps giving me, now, I appreciate all of that, I enjoy my life much more because of that, "life" is a balance of positive with negative. (thanks paul for reminding me that)

Life is not like a book, life is more than just memories, its a feeling of "belonging", its a ride where, faces, dances and gazes run by, life is nice, life rhymes with wine. I've had many experiences, and many feelings running about. I've been tossed and I've tossed. Only actions not done are the ones needed to be done.

No more will I hold fear responsible for not acting. No longer will my life be shackled and lost to me. Not blaming anyone, you can only loose yourself.

My core. Who I am. I'm a mere student of life (golden boy sounds any bells?), and, in some "subjects" I excel, in others, I flunk and flunk, (good thing they don't charge for it) but here I am, back to it, back to my core. Finding myself once more, I've strayed, I erred and stumbled, I wined, danced and love my life, I will never stop.

Every passing day, every hour (or two) that goes by, makes me feel more at home, more me (good thing im still young).

I'm back.